TIDE

by storygirl

i stared into the depths of the water...hypnotised, lost in the beauty and cruelty in it's depths....i breathed in the Water..and stood still to welcome the Tide that took posession of my soul....

and He was the Tide.....

i remember the first time i saw Him..even then He touched my soul... real life consumed Him with a sadness a despair that haunted Him here... there was nothing of the Dark power i found in Him later that called me to Him ..it was that despair and an undeniable need to reach out and comfort Him to take the lost look from His eyes....that despair was somthing i never saw again...so now i have to wonder...was it the Dark Power that drew me all along?

And the Tide was His Power and the Tide was strong.....and willingly i swam deep into it's depths.....deeper into it's brutal beauty....

it amazes me beyond belief the things we did... and the feelings Our games brought to my soul.....i felt His passions His anger His pain and His death... and i felt the feelings of His soul as they became my own.....and i revelled in them...

And the Power of the Tide grew... and i did not fight It's urging.....longed for it.... and as the Tide began to ebb... It's flow changing direction as Destiny intended.... i did not run...but lost myself in the hidden pockets of It's depth....

Oh how i lost myself... the total submission that i had longed to taste became an addiction to my soul.... almost every moment of His other obligations acepted... and the time filled in pleasing Him... even knowing the future.... every breath only taking in more of Him.....waiting knowing it would soon end... His ..... and showing it and knowing it with every moment ... following my own destiny..... needing to know if the submission i wanted ...needed... to feel within myself was there... could be endured.....

And the Tide receded.... and i was left on the beach smiling at the thought of the Waters seeking ...and finding within Itself an everchanging flow.....The Tide taking with It It's Powers hold .....to the end a test of the Waters desires...... needs..... that so filled my soul...and each test suffered....and each test passed....and every pain endured.....

and endure i did..... and grew... that intoxicating submission a taste to digest and know.....

the learning... and what i sought...what i found....changing and guiding me....

i watch the Water flow with tearfilled eyes and a sad smile ... Destiny has been fullfilled and the Tide will travel... and The Waters touch has left it's mark... and it's gifts behind for me... an impression on my soul that will never fade....

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