Sir,
i have just returned from the boy's training camp2 in Dallas and
i am forever changed by what i learned and experienced. Coming into
the weekend i had feelings of fear of the unknown. How could i be
a boy, what was a boy, would i be punished for my behavior, is this
like a military camp, would these Masters hurt me? All of these
fears and others came into my mind and made me feel so nervous.
i have never been around gay men and would they like this girly
girl from a small country town? Was my training and ability enough
to shine with the "very best"?
Instead i went and met the most incredible and experienced Masters
that i have ever known. Their sexuality had nothing to do with their
love for our lifestyle, the background of experience and need to
teach. We had a met and greet Friday night and the training began
Saturday. The "training" was educational: our history,
how to contract, negotiate, finding a Sir or Ma'am, relationships,
internalization, how to blacken and polish boots and so much more.
The stations of the cross allowed us to experience new play with
the very best of those items and those Masters in that play. So
much learning and new experiences.
i left Sunday with a sense of peaceful centering. i was given dog
tags that read: To obey, serve, respect, and honor that reminds
me every day of what i have been taught and what i should always
do in every contact that i have in.my life. The torch has been passed
onto me and it is my responsibility to pass it down to the next
group and generation. Never will i be the same submissive who walked
into the doors that Friday night. Instead i am stronger and have
something planted inside of me that has forever changed me. And
for the better :)
